Maura looked around her, at her purse sitting on the vacant
seat next to her, at the other passengers, she found herself amussed at the lack
of passengers on her flight and by the fact that she appeared to be in the
women's section of the airplane. She wondered about all the other females on
the flight that were traveling alone, where were they going, was it business or
pleasure and just who might be waiting for them at the end of their journeys.
Maura had made this flight before and she knew who would be
waiting for her at her final destination, he had always met her, and she him
because they had been engaged in a long distance relationship for the entirety
of it. One going to the other, hotels, trains and planes, meeting in the middle
of the country and traveling hither and yon to be together. Maura smiled as she
looked back on their destinations, the places they had been together, the times
that they would kiss openly and notoriously in front of strangers, even clerks
at the checkout lines, each of them waiting patiently for them to unlock their
arms and their lips. The passion between them was intoxicating to them and to
those that witnessed it.
Maura wondered if Andrew ever realized how it had impacted
her, that first passionate kiss on the wharf in Annapolis, he had spun her
around and held her tight against the piling pushing into her with an embrace
that sent chills up her spine, and then he came in for the kiss, pressing his
lips hard onto hers. It wasn't that he had hurt her, he hadn't, but she knew he
was there, that he was making her part of him and it filled her with pleasure,
hope, love and desire.
Maura certainly burned with the desire to have Andrew a part
of her life, to wake up next to him, to walk with him, to have him hear her
heart and fulfill her soul. She knew that Andrew loved her, how could he not,
he had traveled so many miles in the last five years just to be with her and he
had welcomed her each time she came to him, but there was more to their relationship.
Andrew was hands down the most beautiful creature Maura had
ever laid eyes on, and he filled her memories with his image. His hands had
such a strength to them, she could see them resting on her thigh as they rode
together in the car and that image gave her comfort. Maura often times found
herself closing her eyes and running her fingers across every perfect little
line of his body, his shoulders, his thighs and his stomach. He was so perfect
physically and the thought of seeing his perfection again excited her.
There was more than his physical appearance that made Maura
love him though, she knew his sweetness, the kind gentle side of him. The side
of Andrew that lifted her emotionally and it was this side that gave her
comfort when she needed it. It was this
side of Andrew that pulled her in, and she knew this was what she wanted and
needed to survive life and within the relationship. As Maura set on the flight
this time she knew what she needed from Andrew and she hoped that he would see
that, see the pain in her face and what her life had been like since she had
last seen him.
She carried with her a symbol on this journey, she planned on
giving it to Andrew as soon as she sat in his car, as soon as she knew that his
words had merit to them. It was symbolic and while Maura knew that she
understood the significance of it she hoped that he would too. She had shopped
and shopped trying to find the perfect little ingot, it needed to be gold, for
gold was how she saw him, pure and bright.
Her gift needed to be able to be able to carry with it her emotions
something that she felt only he would understand.
It was a fluke that Maura, despite days of looking and
scouring every store within miles that she found exactly what she was looking
for in the jewelry store where she went to have links removed from the watch that
Andrew had purchased her for her birthday. While she waited to have the watch
fit to her thin frame the ingot jumped out at her, it was more than she had
anticipated spending, but it was perfect so she purchased it for him.
The gift made her smile, made her happy for she knew that it
was symbolic. She just hoped that Andrew would see the symbolism, that he would
understand the meaning. She reached into her bag on the seat next to her and
pulled the box out of the corner she had tucked in into. As she opened it she
ran her finger over one side, the side that bore their initials and joined
them. She held her finger there for a moment, talking to Andrew and whispering
into his ear, saying it was no longer a me thing, but an us thing now, asking
him to hear her, to show her he felt the same.
Maura knew that she loved him more than anything, that he had
become her world, and she knew that without him in her life she would be on an
endless path to nowhere. In her mind, in her soul and heart she would be his
forever. She wanted him to feel the same way to be hers forever, and so it was
she turned the ingot over and touched the other side. Holding her finger there,
believing that by doing so she would make it true and real.
As she lifted her finger she saw the words that she wanted
Andrew to feel, needed him to know, words that would be placed on the chain he
wore around his neck, words that when he doubted he could touch and know how
she felt, the symbolic gesture that meant Maura was making a commitment to him.
For on this gift which bore their initials on one side contained, in their
native language the word, "forever".
Maura closed the box and placed in back into the corner of
her bag as the pilot indicated they were preparing to land. As she did so a
tear ran down her check, she knew that in just a few short moments the plane
would be on the ground, she would fall into Andrews arms and when they settled
into his car. She worried about how Andrew would react and though she loved him
with every breath she had she was pensive. She knew that she would know if he
accepted her "forever".
"Forever can only last as long as those that are in are committed to an eternity." (me 2016)
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